Blue...

I am so down in the dumps!! I want to get it out and on record, and this may be a good place to do it, because my main blog is fixed and everybody stops there. I Hope.

I have been on the verge of tears all day. Might be from lack of sleep. The wind was gusting around 45-50 MPH last night, and kept me awake. I saw 630 on the clock and fell asleep, woke up at 1030. so 4 hours of sleep. Not nearly enough.

We are on 22 solid days of rain, with another 11 in the forecast. We are just drenched, and the clouds are hanging really low and thick and gray. Depressing!

I also am so saddened by the fact that I once again did not get voted onto the Board of DIrectors at the playhouse. I think I am going to hang up my hat. I hate to do this, because I get such pleasure out of it, but I can only take so many clues that I am no longer needed nor am I wanted. SO I guess I do one more show for Dottie, and then back away until someone asks me again. This has really hurt me. Hurt me Bad! I thought I had some really good friends there, but obviously not. I am not getting called to work anymore either, so I guess I am through there. I never got paid for the last time I worked either, ah well, Chalk it up to experience. Maybe I can find something to do down at WICA. or maybe I should just lock my doors and stay inside the house for while.

Get my nest in order, and finish projects. Lord knows I have enough of them started and left unfinished.

I will be 60 in 2 more days, and I am feeling that too. My sister keeps making fun of it, but it really really bothers me that the only goal I have left in my life is to die. I am not ready to. But I will get these things finished and by that time maybe the sun will be out again and I can take a long drive with my camera.

I dont make friends easily, and I dont have a really good friend that I can talk to at any hour of the day or night. I miss that. Someone I can call and will just listen to me cry. Someone who wont judge, or offer advice unless I ask. I miss working. It is almost 3 years now since I retired,. 2 more years and then I can go back to work part time. I plan on going to the Navy Lodge and working the night and weekend shift. But I am restricted for 2 more years because I chose the buy out. ok. I can wait.

maybe I need a kitten or a puppy. SOmething to cuddle.

Blue...

I am so down in the dumps!! I want to get it out and on record, and this may be a good place to do it, because my main blog is fixed and everybody stops there. I Hope.

I have been on the verge of tears all day. Might be from lack of sleep. The wind was gusting around 45-50 MPH last night, and kept me awake. I saw 630 on the clock and fell asleep, woke up at 1030. so 4 hours of sleep. Not nearly enough.

We are on 22 solid days of rain, with another 11 in the forecast. We are just drenched, and the clouds are hanging really low and thick and gray. Depressing!

I also am so saddened by the fact that I once again did not get voted onto the Board of DIrectors at the playhouse. I think I am going to hang up my hat. I hate to do this, because I get such pleasure out of it, but I can only take so many clues that I am no longer needed nor am I wanted. SO I guess I do one more show for Dottie, and then back away until someone asks me again. This has really hurt me. Hurt me Bad! I thought I had some really good friends there, but obviously not. I am not getting called to work anymore either, so I guess I am through there. I never got paid for the last time I worked either, ah well, Chalk it up to experience. Maybe I can find something to do down at WICA. or maybe I should just lock my doors and stay inside the house for while.

Get my nest in order, and finish projects. Lord knows I have enough of them started and left unfinished.

I will be 60 in 2 more days, and I am feeling that too. My sister keeps making fun of it, but it really really bothers me that the only goal I have left in my life is to die. I am not ready to. But I will get these things finished and by that time maybe the sun will be out again and I can take a long drive with my camera.

I dont make friends easily, and I dont have a really good friend that I can talk to at any hour of the day or night. I miss that. Someone I can call and will just listen to me cry. Someone who wont judge, or offer advice unless I ask. I miss working. It is almost 3 years now since I retired,. 2 more years and then I can go back to work part time. I plan on going to the Navy Lodge and working the night and weekend shift. But I am restricted for 2 more years because I chose the buy out. ok. I can wait.

maybe I need a kitten or a puppy. SOmething to cuddle.

Driving home...observing...

As I drive, I let my mind wander. Sometimes I talk to myself, asking why or why not A specific incident. Usually it is reliving a situation, and how I SHOULD have reacted, instead of HOW I DID!

Sometimes I sing along to the radio, depending on the mood I am in.

sometimes I just look.

Last night I was just looking...I was heading south out of Oak Harbor, having just come from Albert and noticed just how dark it had gotten while I was in the store. From the parking lot the sky was all dark and cloudy, even though it was only 445! I thought at the time it was unusually dark. AS I topped the hill, I was heading west, and noticed immediately that there was a break in the clouds. Usually when a front moves through, the west clears last, and that is where I was looking. But what I saw was TWO fronts. The first was passing through, and was on it's way out. The 2nd front was just coming in off the Pacific, and was hanging low on the horizon. Right in between, in the light lavender and mauve colored stripe of clear sky was the planet Venus was shining brightly. It was gorgeous, a ray of peaceful hope in a very troubled sky.

The clouds on the receding front had the cottage cheese look, and were back lit ever so slightly by the fading light. Just enough to give them definition, and let you know that it was about to get very windy.

My Father was an outdoors person, with no formal training, just a love for the nature around him. He Read voraciously about it, and LOVED the Weather, the geophysical sciences, and the forests. So naturally as we grew up, and had no Television...(horrors!!), we went out into this vast encyclopedia of living things every weekend, and we observed. Weather was a big interest, as it would adversely affect out lives if we did not watch it carefully. Dad would tell us what the weather was going to do just by looking. We had no weatherman on the 6 o'clock news. He would point out the subtle differences between the clouds, and even though he didn't know the scientific terms for them, he could tell us what they each meant. The Horsetail clouds way up high meant that warmer moist weather was coming in a few days, and it usually did. He could point out where the rain was falling and tell us how much longer we had to walk the beach before we would get wet, SO we always headed back to the car JUST IN TIME!

Last night I saw that one system was moving through and that the end of the system was usually followed by winds, and that the second one was moving in with rain and winds. By the time I had made it to Coupeville, the winds had started, and lasted about an hour, and then it was calm until after midnight.

I know by listening to the sound outside just when it will start to snow, (I have a young lady thoroughly in awe of me!) and I can smell it coming. I really can. I can tell by the way the wind is blowing what might be heading our way. From the south and strong, usually means the storm is going to be warm and wet...A Pineapple express, coming in from Hawaii. From the North usually means that the jet stream has dropped and the lows coming in off the pacific have been diverted to the North, and then whipped down this way, bring cold rain and wind.

I can tell by the moss growing on the North side of everything in my back yard, that we have not had very much exposure to the sun this fall and winter. It will take a lot of scrubbing this spring to get it all clean again.

This is usual weather for the Pacific Northwest. All wet and gray, hardly ever any snow in the lowlands. Dad brought us here in 1954, from sunnier climes, and Both Phyllis and I fell totally in love with the place. It was like living in the middle of a national forest. We learned about nature by observing Dad, and we learned that not all of God's knowledge can be gained by formal schooling. Sometimes the best lessons are ones we observe first hand from someone we trust.

I know I did.

Flotsam and Jetsam...

Why do they say weak as a kitten? those little suckers are strong!!!

Why do we say sick as a dog? I have never seen a sick dog.

Why is it when you barf for 12 hours your tummy muscles and back hurt for 48?

Why is it when you go to town looking your absolute worst is the time you are going to see people you have not seen in YEARS? >:(

Who coined the phrase Flotsam and Jetsam?

I believe I will live. I am feeling better, and managed yesterday to keep chicken noodle soup down. and a bottle of apple juice. I am hungry right now, so I will go eat something comforting like mashed potatoes, or mac and cheese, or I could make some bread pudding? or a PB&J...

I bought some lemon and ginger tea, never tried it, so I will fix a cup of that too.

Next I will go take a hot steamy shower, and WASH MY SKANKY HAIR!! I did not realize how bad it was until I was on my way home from town, and smelled dirty hair, and thought it was Sadie...it wasn't!! ARRGGHH!!!

Sick is not fun!!

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I was just going to bed, when I turned to Anderson Cooper 360 on CNN and heard him say that all 12 miners were found alive!!

I was still awake and watching with bated breath when Anderson Cooper was told an hour or so later, that only 1 young man had survived!

How in God's name can something be mis-communicated like that to all of those family members? How in God's Name are they going to live with that ? I know there are those out there that will blame EVERYTHING on THE GOVERNMENT or THE MANAGERS...but after listening to the President of the Company at the press conference just now, It appears that one of the rescue workers 13ooo feet under the ground was overheard by "someone in the COmmand Center" and then it went from there. Dear Lord give them ALL PEACE!

I blame the press, ONCE AGAIN, for creating a wild frenzy to be FIRST with the BREAKING NEWS. ANderson Cooper right up there with the worst of them.

BRING BACK AARON BROWN!!!!!!!!!!!!

a big bad bug found me!!!

I woke up around 330 AM on Jan 1, puking my guts up. I had woken up to go to the bathroom, but as soon as I sat up I was finding the garbage can, I spent the next few hours getting reaquainted with that yummy lobster tail. I will say it was much nicer on the way down than on the way up. It was not alive when I cooked it, It was thawed, previously forzen, so no telling what good little bugs had decided to make their home in my gut.

Bob called about 1030 AM and asked how I was. He was sick too. So we know it had to be the lobster! i DID NOT MOVE ALL DAY yesterday. And slept almost the clock around. I hurt all over right now. Everytime I try to blow my nose or cough then I have to stop. The muscles are so sore from all of the heaving, that I cry out in pain. Bob had to leave his place for toilet paper, so he brought me over some chicken brooth and apple juice. I think I will live now.

I have been sitting upright since about 1200, and I am really tr4ing hard to stay awake, so I can sleep tonight.

Might be harder than I think. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ